Knock knock

                              Knock knock                   06/05/2019

Knock knock, anyone, 

Anyone out there, with a free time ?

I want Someone to talk,

Someone by my side,

Someone in this whole wide world,

One person will be alright,

Just a person to feel what i feel,

To understand how i feel.

Knock knock, anyone

Anyone willing to listen to my thoughts ?

As I drown in my own sea,

I want some place,

So I could be safe, and hide,

Everyone till now I seek,

Everyone thought I am happiest person alive,

To the world I have smiling face,

But my soul is struggling inside.

Knock knock, anyone

Can anyone listen to what i wanna say ?

There's a deep ocean of emotions,

To you, I wanna express,

Knock knock, 

Please hear me out,

I don't want to fade in darkness,

For my lonely soul,

Will anyone share their light. 

        

                                                    -  Aem Kay

YOU CAN BE BETTER. (part 2)

 (part 2)

What was the first thing,
 that led you on this path,
i am pretty sure,
you have asked this question,
 to yourself a lot,
and your answer always being uncertain,
following your griefs,
and an oversimplified past;

That's exactly what is going wrong,
you are trying to forget the past,
no matter how unlawful or hard it was,
you have to accept it,
go,just look yourself in the mirror,
and say yes, i have done that;
that will surely help,
and calm that loud thumping heart;

You can be better,
acceptance is the first law,
then you will see,
how things work,
and what to do,
to correct your flaw,

You can be better,
by allowing the long gone faith,
to show you the right way,
you have to take control of yourself,
and surround your mind with confidant thoughts;

Believe, that you are unique in different ways,
compare yourself, not with others,
but with your yesterday,
things go easy and achievable,
when you go frame by frame,
be remembered,
little things have always mattered,
whenever history was created,

As with the world laughing at you,
laugh with them on your yesterday,
because for right now,
you are not the same person,
you were that day,
learn from the others mistakes too,
and by being better,
 make your life to learn from,
so if you ever find a darkened soul,
say this words,
"you can be better,
only you can make it better."
                         
                         -Aem Kay.

You can be better? (Part 1)

A heart broken apart,
fears and tears of the failure and falls,
Right down your spine,
I know something's taking hold of you,
Wanting you to jump a cliff off.

Playing mistakes repeatedly you had done,
You'd be drowned in your own thoughts,
That's when it crawls silently,
Darkening that very heart,
Laughs and grinds,
You will remember,
Even after the end of a nightmares,
Waking up to self pity,
You feel lonely and scared.

Now it seems easy to surrender,
To just throw your soul away,
To use it and abuse it,
However they want,
And pass out using not much healthy ways,
Cause that very little thought of self pity,
Had made you believe,
You can now never be better in any way.
   
                  -Mukesh (aem_kay) Kumare.

karz

संभले थे कभी,
गिर अब पड़े  हैं,
जवाबो को खोजते,
प्रश्नो का जाल बुन चले हैं;

अभिमानी थे कभी,
मज़ाक तो अब बना हैं,
गैरो पे हस्ते थे कभी,
सीने का दर्द अब पता चला हैं;

सरहदे पार गए थे,
सरहदे मुल्ख में बना गये,
स्वाभिमान से जो लौ जलाई थी कभी,
आज उसे ही बुझा गये;

खोजने खुद को गये थे,
अंतर्मन खो आये,
क़र्ज़ जिस माटी का था,
उसे ही छोड़ आये.

                -AEM KAY.

आनंद

    "आनंद"

हर ख़ुशी में आपके ,
गम का एक तिनका हैं ,
भुलाये उस हर गम को आपने,
 मुस्कुराना सिखाया हैं,

पता हुए भी अंजाम आप,
कोशिशो से हटे नहीं,
ज़िन्दगी जो बाकि थी जरासी,
उसे रोतें हुए जियें नहीं;

जब मन किया आपका,
दिल खोल कर हस पडें,
आंसुओं की बात आई जब,
दिल का वो बंद दरवाजा खोला नहीं;

दिल करता हैं रोदू फुटकर,
जब अब आप हमारे बीच नहीं,
पर मुस्कुरादेते हैं सुनकर,
आनंद मरा नहीं,
आनंद मरते नहीं;

        -मुकेश (AEM KAY) कुमरे.

Fasla

          Fasla

सदियां पार करगये हैं अभी,
सदियों का फासला बाक़ी हैं,
कोई चला हमसफ़र को साथ लियें,
कोई अकेलाही चल दिया हैं;

की गयी गलतियों का,
इतिहास गवाह हैं,
आने वाली गलतियों को,
भविष्य ताक रहा हैं;

शोर सारा मन में हैं,
मुख पे छाया सन्नाटा हैं,
क्रोध, लोभ के साये में पली,
झूठीं ऊपरी मुस्कान हैं;

अंधेरी इस दुनिया मैं,
आशाओं का एक कोना भी हैं,
जहाँ समय के लिए और समय के प्रति,
निष्ठा एवं अभिमान हैं;

हो चाहे कैसा भी वर्तमान,

चक्र तो चलता राहा हैं,
सदिया पार कर गये हैं अभी,
सदियों का फासला बाकी हैं,
                         
                               -AEM KAY

Myself

I now laugh to myself,
For who i was n who i am now,
For the decision i made,
For results i gained,
For nights i stayed awake,
For smiles i have faked,
Past me amuses me now,
For cold water i was then,
For raging fire i am now,
For bad shit i was then,
For wreck less material i am now,

I now get angry to myself,
For the mistakes i had done,
For what it was done,
For the lies I've spoke,
For the trust i have broken,
For the selfishness i have done,
For which i lost some special ones;

I now teach to myself,
From the person i was,
From the person i want to become,
From the under confident i was,
For the confident figure i want to become,
From the hearts i have broken,
For the hearts i have to take care,
For the respect i want to gain,
For the shoes i want to wear,

I now give hope to myself,
For what has to happen will happen,
For to give your best n be ready worst,
For colours i want to see,
For colours i want to show,
For relations i have to share,
For codes i have made,
For spreading positive vibes,
For to raise hope in darkest niches,

The path i took, the path i see,
There is reminder for the coming journey,
That says...be Free n be me;